My readers will perhaps recall my post about my experience with an "evil presence". I'd like to say something more about this subject. (I would also like to list my posts under subject title, but I'm very stupid when it comes to computers and I don't know how to do it!).
In my son’s eyes, the practice of exorcism
is a medieval aberration. And yet, the contemporary psychiatrist Doc. Scott
Peck made a distinction between demonic possession and schizophrenia. Of course
he’s a Christian, therefore, in the atheist’s opinion, he believes in fairy tales.
But what if his religious background allows him to perceive a hidden reality
that the atheist, in his limited horizon, cannot see? When such serious
problems are at stake, every possibility should be considered.
I’m watching my son walking back and forth
like a tiger in a cage, condemning irrational beliefs and praising logic. Only
yesterday he was a boy full of wonder who lived in a fantasy world. If I
mentally put side by side my vivid memory of the boy and the young man of
today, I don’t recognize them as the same person, but I love them both. This
probably happen to a lot of parents, and it’s one of the mysteries of the world
we live in. It’s hard to believe that our children, our loved ones, and even
the young version of ourselves are gone forever.
My point is that if we look closer we can
detect a supra-natural component in the context of our everyday lives. What’s
wrong with exploring possibilities, even if fantastic? What’s wrong with giving
credit to our feelings, even if they belong to a different level of perception?
Are we putting our mental sanity at risk by doing that? I don’t think so. I
think we are simply trying to look at reality from a broader perspective.
Satan can be a funny business if one doesn’t
see him as a threat. When I was a little girl I dreamed of the devil twice. The
first time he was hiding under a table. I lifted the table-cloth and there he
was, nothing but a huge, red, grinning face complete with black horns. I think
I screamed for quite some time after I woke up. My mother had to pick me up and
carry me around the house to show me that there was no demon crouched under any
piece of furniture.
In the second dream it didn’t look like the
devil at all, but I knew it was him. It was hiding behind a curtain. I pulled
it aside and I saw a rather funny creature entirely made of cobalt blue bones. Don't get me wrong, it wasn’t a
skeleton. Those bones seemed to have been put together at random, as if to
assemble a marionette. It was clumsy but in a terrifying way. There was no
cranium, just a bouquet of small blue bones. I wonder, is that how one looks
after having spent some time in the furnace?
Of course the Catholic Church believes in demonic possession. I think that there are both good and evil forces in our world. We should do our best to bring out the good, and one way to do it is to find meaning to our lives.
Msgr. Luigi Giussani wrote in
The Religious Sense that man responds to reason’s need for meaning. He said that if we didn’t take the world around us for
granted, we would be amazed at its beauty and complexity. If we were to come out of our mother’s womb
with an adult perception of the reality we would be in awe, not only of nature but
also of human accomplishments. We would be astonished, incredulous, and we would know
that this incredible world is not a meaningless place.
The human race can’t be headed nowhere. This statement doesn’t come out
of fear, but out of wonder. It is a reasonable response to our big questions. Acknowledging
the reality of the Mystery is reasonable, not irrational, because the very world we live
in and our very selves are signs of this mystery. God is the most immediate implication of self-
consciousness. Even the most passionate atheist must admit that we have an intuition of the Beyond.
Whether we are afraid of death or not, we all perceive ourselves as part of something
eternal. Chances are that we may be right.
3 comments:
I certainly believe in the super natural and in Satan, but I have to admit I have trouble with the notion of exocism. That's one of those ideas I just acknowledge but I don't ever bring up. Evil is real and it happens all the time every day. Like I said in the post after this, "Forgiveness of Sins," satan tempts us in society into little sins which form our nature and in turn forms society and upon which great evil will be built.
Your blogs are always interesting Antonella. That notion you had of your son as a child and now as a young man and not recognizing them but loving the two as different people was a brilliant!
Thank you so much, Manny! Everything I write is based on experience. You'll see when your son will grow up!
Actually now that I think of it, my mother has said she doesn't recognize me any more, but I don't think she meant it as a compliment...LOL.
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